Friday, August 27, 2010

steppin' in the right direction.

Wednesday, I went to bed before 7 PM. It was awesome to get enough sleep for once. Not that I am complaining, when I do not get enough sleep it is always my own fault. Thursday AM I got out of bed about 530 or 545. I jumped on the treadmill and slowly pounded out a little over a mile. My goal is to slowly work back up to 3 plus miles. I am going to do it slowly so I am not having to deal with lower leg pains like I did in previous months. I had every intention of running 3 miles Thursday AM, but when my legs started screaming that my 230 plus frame was too much to handle I hit the showers. Well, just the shower.

Thursday night I played basketball like usual. I sweated and ran and ran and sweated. I am disappointed with the percentage of shots that actually went in. Some days are better than others. In all reality I am better off now as a basketball player than I was at this time last year. I have no crazy thoughts of being anything but a pick-up or church league baller. I have a good time playing and hanging out. I look forward to Monday and Thursday's.


Monday, August 23, 2010

How Bad Do YOU (SHEP) want it?

I had to take the day off work to drive the 300 miles round trip to Columbia, SC for the Neuro-Psychologist in charge of brain research to tell me I am indeed stricken with ADD. While driving the crazy interstate system of South Carolina I was reflecting on how I would love to coach a sports team. When I get these ideas in my head I often play out scenarios in my head. This particular scenario I was thinking about getting my team prepared for a bigger, stronger, more athletic team to compete against. I could hear myself shouting at them to work hard and asking them "How bad do you want it?"

I then snapped back to reality and considered the things that I want in life.

I want:
To lose a significant amount of weight.
To be a good father.
To be a good husband.
To be a good employee.
To be a better basketball player.
To be a better Christian.

These are all goals that are attainable. I know these are all things I can accomplish. I do not feel like I am putting in enough effort. I can sit on the couch and complain about all the things that I have not accomplished, or I can get up and put forth the effort it will take to reach my goals and aspirations.

I played basketball tonight for about 2 and a half hours. I am very tired and had an awesome workout. However that is all I have been doing as far as exercise goes since May. It is time to get back on the treadmill and start logging some miles.


It Has Been A Minute

I have not posted in a while.....

I am still alive and kicking. I am still around 230 lbs. I need to get my crap together and get back on track.

I had a conversation with my father today. He called complaining about how he has nothing and his health sucks because of  his addiction to prescription pain killers. When I told him I had warned him months before that he needed to get help, he tried to explain to me that I do not understand what it is like to be an addict. I do not have any idea what it is like to be addicted to drugs, but food has always been a driving force in my life.

I feel terrible that I am having to explain to my father what he should be doing to get his life together. It sucks that I know not to abuse drugs, but I can't keep my eating habits under control.

At church ( the pastor was talking about the verse in the Bible old school folks use to tell people my age we shouldn't have tattoos. You know the one that says your body is a temple. Well, I do not believe tattoos are wrong, but I have not treated my body like it is a temple.

I have some things that I need to take care of for sure.

I have the resources and the support system I need at home to be successful. I need to stop being lazy and get myself back on track.

Today I was humbled beyond words. God showed me no matter what situation is going on, that he is never going to leave me, even when I stray.

I am looking forward to getting squared away. It is going to be a hard, tough battle, but it is a battle worth fighting.